Posted by rubenstein on October 28, 2004, at 9:55:50
Yesterday was so awful. An hour before my session I found out my best friend in the world might have Aids. I was so stunned and I just wasn't myself in therapy. He was understanding but I know that I frustrate him at times. IN the middle of the session he asked if I wanted to see someone else, and if I did that that would be okay. I never cry in therapy but started tearing up becuase I really like my therapist and I don't want to see anyone else. I think I am making progress even if it is small or whatever. I said I didn't want to see anyone else and asked if he didn't want to see me anymore, and I can't quite remember what he said although I am sure it wasn't "no I don't want to see you anymore." I wonder if that is what he meant though. I am probably overanalyzing things because he is usally really straightforward with me. I just can't lose that lifeline right now. I am so scared. How can I bring it up??? Oh and then later that day I found out that my friend had tried to commit suicide the night before and I just couldn't deal with it and I SI'd.....it had been almost 3 weeks....oh well. Maybe I am a bad patient.
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