Posted by rockymtnhi on November 14, 2004, at 23:56:37
I don't feel like going back to therapy anymore. I expected to feel sad and miserable at even the thought of leaving. I sat in my last session thinking that I just could not do it anymore. My therapist has no idea that I am feeling this way. I suspect that if I told him, he would not try to talk me out of it which then, might make me feel rejected. I have never spoken to him about ending but in my mind, I always thought that it would be a very positive experience- even though I would miss him. I envisioned accomplishing my goals and sharing the success with him. I didn't accomplish my goals because they turned out to require so much more than I initially expected. I am better, but not even close to where I had hoped to be (no fault due to the therapist or me, some things just require time). It seems that even the best therapy terminations feel like a break-up.
I do wish that I could have hugged him once before I left but I am fairly certain he would not have allowed it.
It's just a odd place to be. Anyone else just feel like they are finished with therapy but cannot say why?
poster:rockymtnhi
thread:416085
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