Posted by littleone on November 28, 2004, at 16:32:49
In reply to Re: Writing for my Therapist » littleone, posted by Skittles on November 28, 2004, at 16:11:53
> Part of the reason I don't talk is because some things are just so hard to say. The other part is that I am terrified of the emotions it would bring up. I'm pretty sure it would make me really needy and I'm not confident she'd be able to meet my needs or that I could even let her if she tried. It all comes back to the fear of being too demanding
I'm so impressed that you can see that about yourself. Not only do I not let my T into my head, but I usually don't let me in either. If I try to even think about why I can't talk to people, I just hear from myself "I don't know. I don't know. I don't know." Like a mantra.
> so I just sit there mute.
You know what really annoys me? When I finally do utter something, I am so so so quiet that he can never hear me. It was hard enough to say it in the first place. It takes tremendous courage to say it again. And even then, it's not usually something momentous. Hardly seems worth the effort to repeat it.
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