Posted by Fallen4MyT on December 6, 2004, at 14:14:38
In reply to All about Falls' anxiety, posted by fallsfall on December 6, 2004, at 7:48:28
It sounds to me like we are a lot alike in how we feel but different to our approach..I feel often out of control but I tend to have taken control by having a lot of order to have that control if this makes sense..Like with the socks..I do wash every day ,,,I have a drawer of socks all rolled up with its mate..much of my clothes and cds are in order and so on..I would be lost if I did not have the things I need where I need them for example if I do not exercise everyday it bugs me ...so I make sure the night before things are set up to do so...I need the exercise for my stress and well am a fitness freak...Maybe if you want you can go woth dirty socks on and just a hat on leave your hair dirty... the dogs will love the walk...then get home and do the yoga..then wash what you wore and dry it and keep it in a bag in the bathroom for tomorrow and so on? Just an idea...for me on exercise I use to hate it now I do not even think on it or my shall we say sypplies its a habit not like signing on aol....it can be like that for you maybe once you get more into the exercise ...It takes a lot control to exercise your body..I have nice muscle mass now too :)
> I try to do something over which I have lots of control. I play computer games (geometric puzzle games). I color geometric designs. I play with geometric lego-like toys. Gee, I think I like geometric things. They make me feel like there is order in the world.
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> Maybe being able to structure this little part of my world makes me feel less out of control (that's what the anxiety is about for me - being out of control). Like now.
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> I'm thinking I should take my dogs for a walk and do my Yoga tape, but I'm almost afraid to stand up because I feel like I'll be out of control - not able to decide where to move to and what to do. At least when I'm sitting here I am *grounded* in some way. There is only so much flailing one can do sitting down with one's legs on a stool straight out in front, and one's arms stretched out on the table reaching for the keyboard. Gee, I think I'm a little tense today.
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> I think I'll take the dogs for a walk and do my yoga. But I have to get dressed first, and go to the bathroom and brush my hair and find socks (I think I do not have a clean pair - I have lots of clean single socks), or maybe I'll wear my shoes without socks because otherwise I'll spend 2 hours looking for socks and I won't get the walk and I won't do the yoga and I'll be late for therapy.
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> Sorry to make this all about me... I think I'll put this in a new thread.......
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