Posted by daisym on December 29, 2004, at 19:22:28
In reply to selfish reasons***poss. trigger, posted by terrics on December 29, 2004, at 13:34:03
I'm sorry you are feeling so badly. No need to apologize. Glad you felt you could reach out here.
The good thing is not all of you wants to die. So listen to that part of yourself. Allow it to get bigger, "why don't you want to die?" is a good question to be able to answer. My therapist had me write a letter to myself about why I shouldn't do myself in so I could read it when I wasn't in any shape to think of those reasons. Can you write down a few things? He had me start with who would miss me and who I would miss and why.
I agree with Dinah, anger doesn't last for most people. Being annoyed a little is easy enough to get past for pdocs. I bet we annoy them daily! I think you should call, this might be related to medications. I do understand how devastating it is to have someone mad at you...I barely tolerate it.
The most important thing is to force yourself, FORCE YOURSELF, to go be with people. Talk on the phone at least, if nothing else. You need to reconnect to life, not isolate inside yourself.
Please hang in there. We do care.
Daisy
poster:daisym
thread:435341
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/psycho/20041228/msgs/435472.html