Posted by Dinah on January 3, 2005, at 14:00:29
In reply to Re: I scared myself, posted by vwoolf on January 3, 2005, at 9:57:10
Ok, I realized I glossed over the sexual aspect. It did start that way, the way I described it, but...
Did you ever have a good friend (I'm thinking back to college and high school) of the sex you're attracted to. And you might be wrestling or sitting together absently touching in the way friends do - feet on lap or something. And all of the sudden there is this mutual realization that he's a guy (in my case) and you're a girl (also in my case) and hey! this feels sort of good in a mildly stimulating way. Then depending on the level of friendship one or both of you might get embarassed and pull away. But with a really good friend that is *just* a friend, you might sit with the moment for a minute or ten and enjoy it before moving on without fanfare and without acting on the feeling. In other words, you sort of just enjoy the sexual feelings but they go no further.
That's more how it ended up in the dream before the switch to the part with my husband and my therapist both holding me.
OK, I'm going to admit something here. I *never* *ever* remember feeling sexual about my daddy. But the photo somehow seems a tad sexual to me. I am *positive* it's just me and only looking back as an adult, because no one I've shown it to has noticed it. Everyone says it looks like Daddy's little girl. And I'm *positive* that's what it was.
And wild horses wouldn't drag the dream from my lips to my therapist's ear. It might make him feel uncomfortable around me and less relaxed. And while I may intellectually know that's a good thing, no power on earth is going to get me to implement it.
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