Posted by Toph on January 3, 2005, at 17:24:44
In reply to Re: Idealizing » Toph, posted by alexandra_k on January 3, 2005, at 17:04:37
>
> Yeah, I guess it is something to say. Something to do. Something that tends to prompt a response. Keeps them awake, eh? I do this too. Maybe it is a 'test' in a way. See how they handle it. I mean, if they are going to get all upset with you at that point, well, then it is good to know that before divulging something of real personal significance. Something where their upset can really cut you to the bone.
>
After a couple years of therapy I got pissed at my T repeatedly suggesting that I could alleviate much of my depression with intensive psychotherapy. I stood up and told him he was selfish and cruel for suggesting something he knew I couldn't afford. Well, he lost his composure and yelled back. I can't remember what he said I was so shocked to see a psychiatrist yelling at me. For the next 4 weeks I was obsessed with what had happened. Wasn't I allowed to vent my frustration at him without reprisal? When we next met he began the session with an explanation of what had transpired, as if it had bothered him as well, but not exactly an apology. We didn't really process it to my satisfaction. I suppose I could be glad that he is human and defends himself as anyone else would. But that idealization we are talking about, I'm afraid it is irretrievably lost for me.Toph
poster:Toph
thread:436049
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/psycho/20041228/msgs/437294.html