Posted by thewrite1 on January 17, 2005, at 16:57:33
I don't even know what I want to say. I spoke with my T about our between sessions call. She was perfectly fine with it. In fact, she gave me her home office # in the event of an emergency, which psychologically I'm not even sure what that would be. I told her that I was ashamed to be there and all that. I failed to mention that the call didn't help me.
I'm at a critical point in my life right now where things just seem to be spinning out of control. I want to call her and tell her that I just can't do this life thing anymore. It's just too stressful. On the other hand, I feel I can't count on her. I'm far too dependent on her and it's not fair. I don't even want to be dependent on her. And then I feel like I can't be. I left my session saying to her, "Please don't leave me." She said she was there for me during sessions and if I needed to talk between sessions. I don't feel right about calling and I don't know what I'd say if I did. I don't even know what I'm trying to say here.
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thread:443283
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