Posted by Shortelise on January 20, 2005, at 23:46:49
It's grey outside, a big grey rainy world, full of puddles, and mud, and splashing cars.
Staying at home and making my indoors into a cosy home is wonderful. But I am beginning to feel like crying all the time. Saw my T today and we talked about depression being cyclical, and how it's biological with me - my mother and sister are both given to periods of depression.
I am going to rent a light box, and continue to try to do things to get me out of this pattern. It feels like a familiar place I go to, one I should not go to, but that I go to anyway. I feel it, I am aware of it, but it's as though I am too tired to choose something else.
I am also going to increase the Celexa I am taking. I think. I'm not exactly sure. I am a little afraid of it.
So. Maybe someone here will have some insight into breaking out of this pattern. I have begun a drawing, walked for a couple of miles today, and still feel like icky-poo. Now, there's an offensive expression. Icky-poo. I think the word I really mean, the one that describes the end result of good digestion, is far less offensive. I digress.
I feel awful. I'll keepyou posted on the light therapy.
Thanks for reading me.
ShortE
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