Posted by mair on January 23, 2005, at 13:30:48
In reply to Re: Jealousy over T » mair, posted by alexandra_k on January 23, 2005, at 0:51:29
Just the discomfort of running into some I knew. It's funny because the first few years I was in therapy I never told anyone about being depressed or in treatment. By the time I was a few years along with my current T, I was much less guarded. I started running into this woman I know because she had an appointment right before me and she always seemed to run over, and she never used the back door out which would have kept her from the waiting room. I told my T that running into her didn't bother me and I honestly didn't think it did. After awhile, I noticed, however, that I was arriving at the last second hoping that I wouldn't run into her, and sometimes I'd even park my car in a parking lot across the street if I saw that her car was still in my T's parking lot. I'd sit there stupidly like a stakeout or something until she left. Pretty pathetic! I didn't say anything to my therapist, but somehow she picked up on my discomfort and suggested we roll my session time back by 10 minutes.
On one other occasion I came out of her office and ran into a couple I know headed in. I did mention this to my therapist at the next session and it turned out that they had just rescheduled for that week, so it wasn't going to be a regular occurrence.
Now it's funny because although she knows she shouldn't really say anything about any of her other patients, she sort of dances around it when we have to reschedule a session to a time before or after these people I know or if she's had to reschedule them to be before or after me. She'll give me this warning to come late or begin early as the case may be.
I don't really know why it bothers me that much. I'm not ashamed of being in Therapy, but I do think I'm ashamed of how long I've been there.
Mair
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