Posted by Daisym on February 4, 2005, at 11:31:33
In reply to Re: My dad (csa trigger), Daisy, posted by sunny10 on February 4, 2005, at 9:13:05
I have a million questions --
But what I really want to know is exactly what does "doing the hard work" mean? I've read the books, I've researched therapy protocols a ton, but I still don't know what is "normal" for this process. (Of course you don't have to share if you don't want to...)
I struggle with telling the stories over and over and over again. Some part of me wants to keep dragging them up and out but then I get really scared about overwhelming my therapist with sadness and negativity. So I move away from the past stuff and we try to deal with the present stuff. But the effects of living with a really angry person (my husband/about his illness) are setting up what feels like a re-enactment of some sort -- so I'm in these old fear feelings all the time. And I go back to telling the stories. And I'm so easily triggered right now, even by my therapist's questions. I just float away. Urg!
I want to know how long people keep telling their stories -- it has been over a year for me -- and I want to know if other people find themselves at the extrememes of "save me/don't leave me" and "I should pull back and give you space" with their therapists. I'm driving myself crazy with all of this. No one I know IRL has the attachment issues I do in therapy. I guess that is why I hang out here so much.
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