Posted by Dinah on February 18, 2005, at 15:32:35
I suppose I feel good that he offered.
He'd like me to keep to the schedule that we had worked out, but I don't think I can afford it. So he offered to do the third session a week at half price. But I refused.
That's one boundary I don't want to cross. I'm afraid he'd feel resentful. He says that if he offered, he'd have no right to feel resentful. I asked since when do feelings listen to rights. He said that if I noticed him being resentful, we could talk about it at that point. I don't even want to get to that point. I guess he understood that.
We also discussed my conviction that I don't think I'm worth seeing for the standard insurance reimbursement rate. :) He told me of course that wasn't true, and mentioned that I still didn't trust him, did I.
I guess I don't trust him. Not in that area.
He mentioned a few other alternatives.
I agreed to come in and talk to him about it. I'll admit that the reason is that if he thought it was important enough to reduce his rate, I was intrigued as to why. I think he's offered all he's got in the area of work, and that third work themed session per week isn't really worth the time or money. I guess I'd better work on my presentation before I see him. :P
I forgot to tell him his offer meant a lot to me. I'll try to remember for next time. And I'm not usually outright rude, so I wonder why I forgot.
Oh well.
I was also left feeling extremely anxious, enough that I had to take a rare daytime Klonopin, and I'm not sure why such a nice discussion would have left me feeling so anxious.
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