Posted by fallsfall on February 19, 2005, at 23:45:14
In reply to Re: Buckled @ Knees Thwarted Suicide Attempt » fallsfall, posted by corafree on February 19, 2005, at 21:48:11
Cora,
It is important that you find a way to get professional help. You need to work towards being able to have resources who can help you.
Friends and family are wonderful and essential, but they do not replace the professionals. There are things that friends and family cannot do that you need. They can't do these things because they love you. I have tried to be the ultimate support for a friend, but I cannot do it - it isn't good for me, and it isn't good for her, either. You need to have someone helping you who understands what you are going through, and understands what you need to get to the other side of it.
If you are in DBT, then there should be a 24 hour phone number that you can call. DBT stresses that they want you to call so that they can help you use the skills that you are learning in the group. They know that you won't always know how to use those skills - that you will need help in figuring out what skill to use how in each situation. So they encourage you to call them when you are having trouble.
Right now you are having trouble. Please let them help you. I understand that you are scared that they can't be trusted, but in actuality, they are the people who are best able to help you. You may not always *like* the help that they give all the time, but there are reasons that they do what they do.
Have you read "Cognitive-Behavioral Treatment of Borderline Personality Disorder"? It is the text that goes with the Skills training manual for DBT. I found it really helpful in understanding what some of my own struggles were about.
I am worried about you. If you are not safe, then you need to do something to keep yourself safe. I understand that you want your daughter to keep you company, but it sounds like she is finding that a bit overwhelming. She loves you, and wants you to be OK. So, please, do what you need to do to be OK - for your daughter, if not for yourself. Either call the DBT number, or go to the hospital. Or at least make a promise that you will be OK until tomorrow. Watch a movie, go to bed, chat with a friend online.
You are reaching out (you posted here...) - please reach out to professionals who can help you.
Falls.
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