Posted by Aphrodite on March 1, 2005, at 13:43:15
In reply to Trying to re-bury what I disclosed T- CSA Trigger, posted by Poet on February 28, 2005, at 19:13:52
This is big and it's such a struggle. I am glad you told her. I am glad she already had that insight. That makes me hopeful.
I've tried to take it all back before, too. You can't. It doesn't work. You're just scared and rightfully so.
I am on this road too, so I have no sage words of advice. I just wanted you to know that I feel what you are going through.
It's going to be hard, but your post had this wonderful silver lining, I thought. I felt so hopeful for you when I read that you wanted to start your childhood over with a different family. I just want to give you a standing ovation! You inherently realize that IT WAS NOT YOUR FAULT, and you are placing the blame exactly where it needs to reside. That's incredibly hopeful for your ability to heal. I draw strength from it because I have spent years saying that it was all me and that I deserved it.
I say that not to diminish your current pain AT ALL. I know it hurts. I know it's so, so scary. Lean on us -- a lot of us are in this boat with you, and we can help one another.
Hugs, if OK.
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