Posted by B2chica on March 4, 2005, at 12:35:48
In reply to Supression, posted by Poet on March 3, 2005, at 20:39:54
poet, i agree with daisy.
the 'flashes' of repressed memories i had completely forgotten about started to surface when i first started therapy a year ago(though i NEVER discussed them) i wanted to discount them to 'wild imagination', or that i somehow twisted things, or even dreampt it...i couldn't even admit to myself things that happened...it's been a year since i even uttered silently in my mind what 'may'/did happen when i was young, LET ALONE actually say it outloud, Let Alone mentioning it to anyone.
I'm now finally at a point of SO much pain inside, i Finally have a pdoc i completely trust And a T that i feel So comfortable with that i think i'm ready.
though i still haven 'gotten' into the therapy mode since my first real session was the same day i was released from the hospital (we mostly talked about what happened while i was in there). but i think i am as ready as i'm gonna get to spill.
But something in me needed to go through this long painful process and things needed to 'fall into place'. now that they have, i think i'm in a state of mind to start to at least try to talk about it.Please know you are NOT alone. and you need to be in a place you feel comfortable and Most imortantly a safe place. ask if on a day you decide to spill, will you be able to call your T that night if you 'emotionally respond' to talking about your issues. can you ensure you will be safe, around people, someone to stay with you? this may help.
HTH
Please take care...
b2c.
poster:B2chica
thread:466218
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