Posted by Susan47 on March 10, 2005, at 9:50:14
In reply to Wake me up when it's over...., posted by messadivoce on March 10, 2005, at 2:48:53
Whatever bad luck is causing you to be left by your T's, it's NOT your fault. Even if you honestly believe anything you've done caused them to leave you, which I sincerely doubt.
When our minds are messed up by trauma, we all do or say things we don't understand or will see differently later when we're able to think clearly.
I spent the majority of my life not being able to think. I don't know how I stayed off the streets, how I managed survival at a decent level. I believe now that there was one person in particular, and many others along the way, who understood I needed protection, and they afforded me that. My brain is finally beginning to come out of the shadows. It's being able to put pieces together and comprehend the world in a different manner. And I can see how my past behaviours were dysfunctional but I don't even need to forgive myself for that, because I know I was helpless.
So even if you believe now that it's your fault, Voce, I hope the day comes when you can clearly see that it isn't.
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