Posted by Larry Hoover on April 7, 2005, at 22:24:32
In reply to Re: I don't know where else to post this, so..... » Larry Hoover, posted by Pfinstegg on April 7, 2005, at 18:33:58
> No, it's not complete dissociation, because you're still aware of everything around you- and also very aware of how you would have preferred to have acted. I just meant that a younger, angrier part (which wouldn't exist without the abuse you described) was temporarily expressing his feelings.
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> I do this myself, but am still quite startled to find that my therapist considers it as coming from a different ego state. Even though it's happened hundreds of times in therapy (and of course outside, too), it always startles me that it's considered a different ego state which is not well integrated with the rest of me. Integration- holding the different states and feelings in mind simultaneously, and accepting them all, is our goal.Thanks for talking to me at my pace. I think you startled me, too. I had a bit of an "Oh no!" sort of reaction, even though I had already said that I understood disocciative experiences to be in the same realm I occupy.
That's probably why I felt the need to talk this through, feeling on the verge of pressing forward with a new insight into what happens to me when I get triggered.
I have a counselling session next week. I think I have a topic already picked out.
Thanks,
Lar
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