Posted by Jazzed on June 19, 2005, at 9:38:32
In reply to 1st post here--long, but *please* help., posted by med_empowered on June 19, 2005, at 7:57:52
I'm so sorry that things are so difficult for you Med. Sound like you NEED to get away from your parents. They haven't done right by you. No parent should tell their kid that they are worthless and that they hate them. I know it happens, but it's not about you, it's about their own weakness, dissatisfaction that they have problems, and their anger at themselves -they're taking it out on you.
If you have your undergrad degree, how can you lack ambition? I'd say that's pretty ambitious, and the fact that you WANT to go to grad school is very ambitious. Are you able to get out from under their thumb? To move out, and get financial aid? Will you be able to stay away from them, so they don't bring you down?
As for the Ts and the meds. Is your p-doc good, or do you need a new one? I wouldn't worry about the diagnosis, it's mainly just for insurance purposes, but of course you want to be treated with the right meds to lift your depression. Have any of the meds helped?
I'd stay with a T, with the kind of therapy that has worked best for you. Sounds like you need someone to talk to, someone to be your sounding board, but someone who can offer insight and support.Once you start to get things more on track, and feel better about you, that should begin to fall into place. It's not easy to maintain friendships, it takes work. In grad school, hopefully you'll meet people who have similar interests. What are you going to be taking?
Hope this helps a little. I hope you can get away from your parents, sounds like that's the best gift you can give yourself.
Jazzy
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