Posted by Shortelise on June 19, 2005, at 12:39:29
In reply to Warming the stone child, posted by Emily Elizabeth on June 18, 2005, at 22:07:56
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I used to stop in the bookstore and read passages from the psychiatry/psychology section. I have never told my T about it. It was in fact how I figured out that I have/am BPD. I never told him I read "In Session". "Necessary Losses" however, I told him about. It was at the time so very topical.
Your therapist would be an odd bird if she didn't know that we all carry a bit of the abandonned child in us. I mean, here we are, and our mothers aren't next to us anymore. There is no such thing as perfect understanding, and, at least some time we all have felt we needed that, haven't we? That is the mother, the one who carries us in her bosom, the only one from whom we might hope for unconditional love because we were part of her body.
I don't actually know what I am talking about, this is all just instinct. But I do belive it. It could be something as simple as being separated from mother for a few hours at the wrong point in time, it could be getting lost at the grocery store for five minutes when we were two, or an illness that put us in hospital when we were five. Or an emotionally unavailable mother. There is somuch "mommy stuff" that can leave a hole in us.
You know better than I, given your course of study!!
I think it would be something interesting to discuss with your T, how you listened to that CD, how it made you feel despite your understanding of not having been abandonned.
Could you be just very empathetic?
BTW, I think we're all a little nuts. Not just us here, but all of us. I have yet to meet anyone who isn't.
ShortE
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