Posted by alexandra_k on June 28, 2005, at 5:07:04
In reply to grr, posted by alexandra_k on June 28, 2005, at 0:52:12
Mmm.
Now my head is going round and round the same old circles.
I just sent him a couple of emails.
I'm not mad.
Really.
Just hurt and confused.
But no good will come of it.
What part of 'I don't want to work with you' don't I understand?I just feel...
I just feel like they expect me to curl up and die.
Or to just vanish of the face of the earth.
Don't get me wrong - I don't think it is that they are malevolent.
I'm sure they would be pleased if I just magically got all better.
But they know I'm not going to just magically get all better.
But they just don't want to hear from me.
And round and round I go and this is not doing me any good...I'm supposed to be focusing on what I'm doing.
What I'm doing.
Not on the outcomes (which are bound to lead to my feeling frustrated)
But I sent the emails.
What good could come of them?
Maybe he will see me again...
:-(
I guess I'm just hurting myself.
But do I regret them?
No.
Not yet.
Maybe tomorrow.
Maybe I will regret them tomorrow.
I don't know.
poster:alexandra_k
thread:520334
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