Posted by happyflower on June 28, 2005, at 18:14:25
I don't know why, but I just feel so weepy today, and tommorrow is therapy, and I feel so sad. It has been 2 weeks, and I have survived his vacation, but for some reason I don't feel like seeing him. . I feel like I have to start all over again with connecting with him. I think it is going to feel weird being there. I normally look forward to sessions.
But now I feel like I am on the verge of totally opening up my well of tears. I am scared, because I don't like to cry, he has never seen me cry, but why do I feel like I need to do it? Why now when I feel so disconnected to him? But yet I was more connected to him then ever last session. I feel so serious, normally I am playful, but I am just tired of all the Sh@t in my life, and want to just pull the covers over my head. Or I feel like telling him everything on how I feel.
I am sorry I am ranting here, I just don't feel right today. :( There is so much to talk about, I don't know where to start. Maybe he should lead tommorrow and I will take a back seat.
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