Posted by pinkeye on July 2, 2005, at 13:08:45
Something I realized today for the first time, it doesn't really matter all that much to me now, whether my ex T cared much about me or not. It really doesn't (atleast not today).
Somehow I have come to depend only on God to care for me, and that I am as ordinary as everyone around me is, and my ex T and my current T and everyone around me is just the same.
They are all humans and bound to fail, and their capacity for caring about another person is very limited. They can never care about me fully, it is only a difference of degrees anyway. God is the only one who can show real absolute care.
And really, all this talk about self esteem, self confidence, and self acceptance is finally actually only realizing that everyone is the same, and that you are as good or as worse as everyone around you is and that your chances are the same as for all including your T, ex T, father, mother, child etc.
A very wise thing my ex T used to say "We are all ordinary people living ordinary lives".. One thing he missed is perphaps at the end, he should have added, and we are all equally loved by God. That would have been complete.
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