Posted by Daisym on August 24, 2005, at 14:35:50
In reply to Aaarrgh! Does therapy have to be so hard?, posted by annierose on August 24, 2005, at 8:07:12
Annie,
I wish it wasn't hard. Or painful. Or confusing. But...
I agree with Falls, it sounds like the dream touched off something that needs to be explored yet feels so unconsciously dangerous that you've pulled in and put your therapist outside the wall. I've had that happen due to some big external stressors, and it feels so horrible. It took me several weeks to get back to a place where I could talk about what was going on at all. I think I spent all my time lamenting the lost connection.
What helped me was to finally focus on the issues again, connection or not, and force myself to be honest and open. The connection came back on its own. Do you journal? Perhaps you can write the dream down, with as many details as you can remember and see what it stirs up for you. Pose questions against it, etc. This seems important since it feels like the dream started all of this.
I would guess you feel like a stranger to her because you aren't sure what is going on with you. These new and confusing feelings, and as you said, feeling so naked and vulnerable, can really be hard to push through. You might have to make a few withdrawals from the trust savings account here, but it seems like you've made enough deposits there from the past to cover your current deficit.
I hate being invaded by family. It always feels like the timing is wrong. I hope you can sneak away for awhile to be alone. Or take everyone to the movies, they can't talk to you there. :)
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