Posted by cubic_me on September 17, 2005, at 10:25:25
In reply to Re: Going back into therapy (poss trigger) » cubic_me, posted by fairywings on September 16, 2005, at 17:23:58
Thankyou Fairywings,
I'm pretty confident in my old T, I just wasn't ready to talk about some things at the time, that I might be able to now. I talked about the si when I was in therapy before, but it was just accepted that that's what I did, and it would stop when I felt better about myself. It did for a while too. There are other things with a lot of shame attached to them that I will have more difficulty talking about.
I've been on different combinations of meds for 3 years, but came off the last lot 3 months ago as they weren't helping and I wanted to see whether being med free made any difference. It didn't really (I was this depressed while on meds too) so I'm staying off them for now. According to my pdoc lithium is the next thing they would try me with, and I'm not prepared to go on that unless I'm a real threat to myself, which I don't think I am at the moment.
I'm glad you've found a T you are comfortable with and can work with - they are hard to come by it seems. We sound similar with the group thing - I thought I'd give it a go, but hated it, even though other group members seemed to get a lot out of it.
> Hi cubic
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> i've gone back to therapy after being gone for a long time and never solving anything the first time. this time it's very scary for me, but i hope to get somewhere even though i'm finding it really scary opening up and being totally and completely upfront about some things because it makes me feel so out of control. i do trust this T, i feel very safe with him. i think if anyone can help me he can. i think he is unlikely to do anything to intentionally threaten me, and i think if you can find someone like that, then you will be able to talk about the s/i and i think that will be worth going back. i'm with you, group would not work for me. i'm a one on one, or nothing. i hope you take the leap and go back, please don't kill yourself. there's been some discussion of it by SLS over on the meds board, he's smart, and has the right idea. oh, and if you need some meds to get you through this, that's okay, we all need some help sometimes.
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