Posted by fairywings on October 3, 2005, at 23:26:33
In reply to Next topic for therapy-My abusive life cycle, posted by happyflower on October 3, 2005, at 17:25:04
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> In a way my marriage is worse than my childhood because I didn't choose my parents but I did choose my DH. Why am I so hard to love?
>Honey, you know you aren't hard to love! You don't need to defend yourself. I'm also pretty familiar with your past because of what you've told me, it s*cked! Period, no other way to put it, and you didn't choose your past, you're right, and you didn't choose to have a husband who was going to be a stick in the mud either! You are lovable, he's just not loving you the way you deserve to be loved right now, and that's not any way for a husband to be. You have every right to feel neglected by your husband.
You have really come out of your shell with the help of your T, and if you feel very close to him, then so be it. He has helped you so much, and the two of you DO seem to have a lot in common. You need to have more faith in yourself, don't be down on yourself! It's not you with the problem, it's your dh. You have so much going for you, I wish your husband would validate you, and treat you the way you deserve to be treated.
You're young happyflower, you still have SO much living to do, I hope you take advantage of all of those years, so that you don't look back with regret. I'm not saying walk away, I'm just saying don't let anyone ruin your life, do what you have to do to make the most of it regardless of what anyone does or thinks. You take care of happyflower, and don't let anyone else tell you that you're doing anything wrong, because you're not!
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