Posted by LauraG on October 17, 2005, at 20:27:39
I don't post too much, but today I need your support. My T (who I was first seeing 2x a week, then once for individual and once for a group she started which I really hate) has "proposed" that I only see her for group and we stop the individual! I feel devastated! I've been seeing her for 3 1/2 years. As much as I hate to admit it, I feel very attached to her. I feel like I'm being punished b/c I'm not the most open person, it's really hard for me to be totally open with people. But I felt like I was doing okay with her. This came out of the blue. I wasn't expecting it at all! So, she isn't saying to go away completely. She said "we are just changing modalities b/c what we are doing in individual is not working." I have felt that she has been frustrated with me lately, although when I asked her if she was she did not answer. Yes, it's partly my fault, but isn't she also partly responsible for not being able to help me get there or something?
Ugh! I feel so sick. I can still see her, but basically I have to "share" her time with other people. I had a hard enough time telling her really private things, let alone telling complete strangers! I know she said it would be wrong of her to continue individual if it isn't working for me, but after so long? It still feels like a punishment. And I haven't been nearly as open in group as I have been in indiv. How can she do this to me?! I feel like she has cut me off altogether! I have been so afraid of this ever since I realized that I felt attached to her. I hate this!!
Am I wrong? Was it wrong for her to do this? The way she did it? (which I'm sure you don't have enough details for, sorry) I guess if she had said something like "I'll have to terminate you if you don't open up more," it would have seemed like a threat.
Any advice? How do I not feel SO horrid?
poster:LauraG
thread:568328
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