Posted by ClearSkies on October 25, 2005, at 6:42:06
In reply to Afraid. » 10derHeart, posted by muffled on October 24, 2005, at 23:56:15
Muffled, I was devastated by my block, even though I knew what I was doing when it happened. (I've owned up to this before.) It did create a distance between myself and babble that did not exist before. Every PBC I get makes me cringe. Am I unwittingly working myself up into another block? I know the FAQs - heck, I even printed them out when I was trying to become a deputy (bad idea!). I even bought a BOOK on civility... you see how much this place means to me?
What am I trying to say? That I'm trying now to get some balance in my life. I try to walk away from the computer when it upsets me. I interpret my intense emotions regarding babble as a sign that I'm seeing situations in a skewed, out of proportional way that is unhealthy for me. I have nobody else to turn to but my friends here, so I'm trying harder to keep my perspective and not jeopardize these internet based relationships. I have no friends IRL besides the babble people I have met face to face - really! I place a huge value on these friendships.
You are not a bad person. You have so many people here who value your presence and writing here. What do you think the effect of your absence feels like to them?
Take a breath. Take a breather, even. Write this stuff down.
But please stay.ClearSkies
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