Posted by daisym on October 28, 2005, at 0:59:27
In reply to Re: New Members of my Mental Health Team/trigger » daisym, posted by Annierose on October 27, 2005, at 20:54:53
I like your team! And again, your T amazes me, knowing that he needed you to have more links in the chain.
***Reminds me one more time how lucky I am to have an experienced person who doesn't seem to get threatened easily. He is pretty confident in his approach, which helps. I guess since he does long term stuff a lot, he is knows how much support it can take to get through all of this stuff.The new p-doc sounds incredible. I hope he helps you find the right medication or combination. The fact that he does therapy speaks volumes.
***I hope so too because SOMETHING has to give soon. I'm really hoping first impression works out to be true in this case. I worried a little when he talked about doing therapy but clearly he understands who is in charge of that part. He asked me if I'd call him if I was in trouble and I said no, but I'd call my therapist. His comment was "you obviously trust him. That is a huge compliment to him." Besides, I know my therapist told him not to mess with me around session frequency.And I like your priest too. I'm glad your T persuaded you to have a chat with him.
***I like him too. He baptized all my kids and he is a warm compassionate man. He said that too often priests are overlooked as supports these days -- too much bad press he guessed. You should have seen me blush when he asked if my "marital relations" were suffering due to my depression! It wasn't an inappropriate question in the context of what we were talking about but still...You sound like you are on more solid footing ... does it feel that way yet?
***Not yet. The new pdoc and I talked about the scale of suicidal feelings. The concern is that I sit mostly in the middle but can drop clear down in an afternoon. I do know more about the triggers but it is the impulse control that is seriously impaired. I'm still on daily check ins with my therapist and I had to do some real pleading not to end up in the hospital last week. In retrospect, I probably belonged there. I think I'm scary right now. My husband agrees.
You deserve happiness. Thank you for letting us know how things are going. I feel bad that you had such a horrible weekend. Thank goodness your T called you back ASAP.
***Actually, at first he couldn't find me. He left messages for me in several different places. I scared him a lot. But I didn't really realize how final the message I'd left him sounded. I guess I was asking for help without really asking for it. But the panic in his voice shook me up enough that I did respond to him. It was pretty awful. I don't know about deserving happiness. Right now I'll settle for no more catastrophes.
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