Posted by orchid on November 10, 2005, at 4:42:04
In reply to Re: I was clearly abused » orchid, posted by Tamar on November 10, 2005, at 3:42:34
Thanks everyone for your support.
I am really confused. What my father does is not sexual. That is why it never occurred to me it was wrong when I was growing up. He just does everything in a very innocent and non sexual way. But the effect on me is very bad.
That is why I keep getting confused. If it was clearly sexual I would have stopped it long back. But he does it in a very innocent way, and now, I just try to silently avoid him. But it didn't occur to me for so long that it is abuse. But now I realize that in the least, it must have caused me tremendous confusion - which continues till today and which made me feel all that towards my first T.
I don't have a T here. And I can't talk to any of my previous Ts. I will be staying here and there and not in one place, so going to a T may not be possible for now.
I am going to try to avoid my dad as much as possible, but I wish he behaves more sensibly atleast now. For heavens sake he is going to be 60. He thinks touching me is very helpful to me. He says his constant hugging will even cure my arthritis. I understand his concern, but what has been happening is really ridiculous and is causing me so much of problem. And because of this I am not able to be free with my husband. And I even have some mild repulsion towards sex.
I am not in any real danger. But it is just so subtle. I wish I had a T to talk about this. :-(
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