Posted by Frida on November 10, 2005, at 18:50:15
In reply to Re: having such a hard time in T and scared *Warning* » Frida, posted by fairywings on November 5, 2005, at 23:51:29
Hi..
Thank you to each of you for reaching out to me-
I wish I could reply to each of you- but I can't stop crying, and I'm a bit lost :-( and I don't have strength left----I read and re-read your replies and it meant a lot to me-
i just feel very scared and hurting- I can't share feelings with my T when I'm there and I feel I'm just getting lost inside of me
My T told me today that this is very serious matter and that we have to hang on tight to the part of me that is trying-
and not to the part of me that keeps playing those tapes/old messages - that I can't keep delaying this---- I do need to let go - I need to cry with her-
TOday i saw her again and the same happened, I shared something, I begged her not to let me get lost inside and if i do get lost to please take me back--
I had tears , I even cried at the door before ringing the bell but with her, I couldn't let go.
I am crying now :-(it's getting so hard not to be able to share feelings and cry with her and to experience it all when I'm back , I don't know what to do.
today i did realize my T is totally committed to our work together and I feel so grateful for that.
She truly cares and I can feel it.but it truly truly hurts not to be able to share and cry with her needing it so so badly
thank you for reaching out to me
love
Frida
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