Posted by happyflower on December 9, 2005, at 11:26:38
In reply to How do you hide it?, posted by fairywings on December 9, 2005, at 10:47:39
Yes, you do seem depressed, and I guess if others have never experienced it, it would be hard to understand it. It is very disabling I think.
I think our T 's have a tough month now, the holidays bring up so many memories for us and not all are happy.
I was doing fine, until the after Thanksgiving, it is harder and harder to put on a happy face for the kids when I am totally miserable being with my DH. I just want to go outside and scream at the top of my lung, I need love, I want love, why doesn't anyone love me? I have a huge heart of love to give, why doesn't my DH want me? What did I ever do? It is getting harder and harder to hide my feelings.
I totally relate to what you feel FW, I am going through it. I have my tree up, the kids kinda of forced us to do it. BUt there are a ton of boxes of stuff that needs to brought out and decorated. But they just stay there unopened, making me feel even worse. I used to love this time of year, but this year, I just want to pull the covers over my head until it is all over. Life sometimes really suck. I guess we can make it together day by day, FW. Email me all you like, I sent you one yesterday. Keep in touch, and we will make it.
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