Posted by Dinah on January 3, 2006, at 23:04:41
In reply to Re: T3 - What a weird coincidence., posted by Dinah on January 3, 2006, at 22:46:31
Hmmm... That sounded wrong. She didn't imply that he did anything bad or wrong in what he did. Just that the situation did lead to my effectively being abandoned.
I have to admit that sometimes it runs through my mind, the evening I called him in hysterics, close to running away from home or sleeping in my car. And he put me off because he said he wasn't in a position where he could talk to me privately. Told me that we could talk about it the next day when he could see me. And then shortly thereafter he left town for six weeks. I try not to blame him for any of that. I really do. I don't want to blame him for it. I know he wasnt' being unreasonable, that he had problems of his own, that he didn't have time to talk to me.
Then I remember the postpartum days when my suicidal urges frightened me. And how he didn't have time to talk to me then either. How I'd sit by the phone at the appointed time, and arrange to have my son watched by my husband, only to have my therapist call and say he really couldn't talk but he wanted to check in.
I don't know.
poster:Dinah
thread:594904
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