Posted by Susan47 on January 6, 2006, at 18:46:24
In reply to Re: How do you forgive your therapist for being, posted by happyflower on January 6, 2006, at 15:25:45
> Susan, I believe you would stop doing this if you could. I think saying to you just to get over it, is like telling a depressed person, just be happy. Are you seeing a therapist at this time? Can you reach out to a professional who can maybe help you with your pain?
> My T says telling yourself to stop thinking about something is useless, because you have to constantly "think" about not thinking about it. Not sure if that makes sense.
> So I am not going to tell you to just get over your pain, or stop thinking about your T , or stop feeling what you are feeling. I truely think you can't help what you are feeling, it isn't your fault either. I believe your T had his role in this too. Please seek help before you do something you might regret.
I've already done everything to regret, which is making a bunch of phone calls and leaving messages on an answering machine, the machine of an ex-therapist, because he'd given me up as a patient, and telling this machine which may have been listened to by who-knows-what persons that I was completely messed up, and using what happened between us without words, which was unbeknownst to me, hurtful to me, as a pivot point for the pain which absolutely had to be let go. And using him for this purpose in spite of the fact that he asked me repeatedly, not to. And not feeling guilty for any inconvenience or anything else I was causing him, because I felt in my heart that he really deserved it for disrespecting me so much.
A look can convey a great deal. In spite of anything he might be telling himself, because I think I might be right about the character of this man, he knows this as well as I do. And he knows, he knows. And the best thing for him to do, and always has been, is to keep silent and to keep distanced.
It's too late for regrets. I don't regret this.
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