Posted by Susan47 on January 13, 2006, at 13:00:12
If anybody can help or not that's fine, I'm just wanting to dial the number and hear the machine, I'm feeling really anxious I guess, that's the word I suppose, and I'm not going to pick up and dial. If someone actually answered I might have a heart attack. Or if, as happened lately, someone picked up and never made a sound. Not a sound. Just as if they were waiting for me to hang myself with my words. Which I do, I strangle myself with language, I use it badly, I abuse language .. to get what I need. Or I think I used to do that. I don't know. I don't know the me from who I was. Do you? Does anybody recognize their old version, who they were before a certain stage or point in life, and see their present self more clearly? Is that possible, or is it illusionary? Our brains are so malleable .. when you're prone to hallucinating you can see it, the truth of it, so clearly.
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