Posted by LittleGirlLost on February 4, 2006, at 1:28:05
In reply to Re: Clients take vacations too..., posted by LadyBug on February 2, 2006, at 15:12:23
(((LadyBug))) I'm sorry your T is away right now. I know how hard it is for you as I also have issues with separation and abandonment. I hope she is coming back soon.
Since this is the first vacation (and first session I will miss) since being with my T, I have very mixed emotions. I need this vacation and should be excited, and I guess I am, but only a little. The bigger part of me (which is actually the little part) just sees it as leaving her, and why would I do that intentionally. It kinda does feel like she's the one that's leaving. We talked a lot about this when I saw her, but it's still hard. I wonder what she is going to do at my appt time? I told her that when she goes away I always make sure to do something special at "our" time, but I can't really expect that of her. :(
I really should get to bed, since I leave in the morning, but wanted to respond to a few posts first since I will be without a computer for week.
Also, I had a really bad day today. I'm hurting so much since seeing T last night and worrying about leaving and stuff. Thankfully I took the day off work to get stuff done (so why am I still up at 2:30 am??). Anyway, I woke up and discovered my home voicemail had been turned off. (I forgot to pay my bill.) I was livid! But more than that, I was SO upset. I had saved a few messages that my therapist left for me... nothing special, but it's still her voice. I also had a few very important messages that I was very upset over. Maybe I overreacted, but it was the timing... here I am going away, worrying about missing my T, and the messages were all deleted. I listen to them when I need to and planned on it while I was away. So I ended up calling her because I was just feeling so bad about everything. I felt stupid but told her about the voicemail thing. I was afraid I was doing something wrong by keeping the messages without her knowing... But she totally understood, and even asked if I wanted her to leave me another message! I thought that was cool. I'm looking forward to it and wonder what she will say. The other messages weren't anything special, just her returning my call, but still! The phone company should not have done that! I'm still angry, but at least I made a payment online and my service was restored.
Oh gosh, I'm babbling and seeing double... I really need to go to bed.
lgl
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