Posted by fallsfall on February 6, 2006, at 8:23:56
In reply to Is this the termination phase?, posted by Dinah on February 6, 2006, at 3:46:24
"stupid" is definately not the right word for you.
I think that you are grieving, quite appropriately. I'm so sorry for your loss, Dinah. I know that this is painful all the way down to your core.
The suicidal ideation seems so understandable to me. You have planned for years to stop living if your therapy ended. It is your "natural" (practiced) reaction to this situation. But please do note that you have already passed the place where you had always thought you would end your life. You have already proved that you can *survive* past where you thought you couldn't survive. I'm not saying it has been easy, it certainly hasn't been fun, but you have survived so far - much farther than you thought you could.
I believe that you will travel through this phase and make it through to the other side. I also believe that this phase will be excruciatingly painful for you. I wish I could make it less painful, but I think that all I can do is sit beside you and hold your hand and tell you that you aren't alone. So, if it is alright with you, I'll sit down beside you.
(((((Dinah)))))
We're here. Keep talking to us.
Love,
Falls.
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