Posted by James K on February 13, 2006, at 18:36:16
In reply to Re: sorry above, i've been getting mixed lately., posted by muffled on February 13, 2006, at 13:49:12
When you get a heavy bag, you have to wrap your wrists and knuckles with ace bandage, then put on training gloves. This is very important. If you have room, you can buy a stand to put up or install in a strong upper beam. I had to move mine to my friends warehouse/studio, because my place didn't work. protect your hands and wrists because they are the only ones you have. beat the sh*t out of that mother f*cker. If someone is around, make them scared. I've never hit a human being as hard as a bag but me. Jab, jab, right cross, left body shot, right cross over and over until you can't breath. Keep your hands to guard your face, and put you legs and shoulders into it. Knees and elbows if you feel the need.
Anything we do to ourselves or others is nothing compared to what those things did to us. I hate. It is not funny, but it is. What do I hate? an idea, people who don't exist as they were then. I have names. They'll never know, but I know. I remind myself. If you can name it, I've done it, would do it, had it done to me, would do it to the next. These are shells. damn, I better shut up. B2chica and muffled, I warned you or should have, please be very save. I'm bad right now and taking steps, hard steps, to get right. If I found out I hurt your emotions by venting, it would hurt me real bad. I want to be well, so do you. let's help each other. by the end of the week or before I will be gone.
The most important thing is " I like you. " I've said it, and it's been said to me. If we can forget the other stuff and focus on that. I still drink. Muffy, you don't (right?) b2chica, i don't know. It's not the best idea for me.
Damos is special. One time in group therapy, I went to my special place and there was blood everywhere, because when I overdosed, and sat out there in front of my bonsai and waited for the ambulance and the birds were singing and the sun was shining and I was on my bench, and everything was okay. And blood. And I went back there in my mind and freaked, so I need a new safe place.
Last time I went into relax with group, I started to hyperventitate and shake. I'm dumping.
shut up James shut Up. sorry friends.
James K
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