Posted by Tamar on February 23, 2006, at 17:53:21
In reply to Re: Anyone notice a difference in my posting? » Daisym, posted by Dinah on February 23, 2006, at 9:10:03
I haven’t been reading as much in recent weeks because I don’t get much chance to get online. However, I’m guessing that what Daisy said is fairly accurate… maybe your emotional self is repressed on Risperdal.
> (I have been a bit confrontational on the Politics board. grin.)
I haven’t read Politics, but I’m sure a bit of confrontation is all to the good!
> But I really don't want to be a bother. Plus when I'm a bother when he isn't really up to dealing with it, it hurts me and my ability to work.
Argh! You aren’t a bother, you’re a ‘Jessica’. You are special and wonderful and interesting and a joy to know. You could be ‘Rational Dinah’ forever and get lots of work done and not trouble your therapist too much and be the person you think people expect you to be, and take Risperdal for the rest of your life.
Or you could be ‘Emotional Dinah’ sometimes, and be your other self; the self who is vulnerable and sometimes weak and sometimes hurt and needs attention, and is also empathic and sympathetic and loving.
It’s not easy being so opposite, or ambivalent, or conflicted. Maybe it feels easier to take Risperdal and always be the same person. But I reckon it’s only half of who you are. And much as I love Rational Dinah, I also adore Emotional Dinah.
I haven’t answered your question; sorry. But I reckon that suppressing one aspect of yourself might not be ultimately helpful to you.
Tamar
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