Posted by milly on March 15, 2006, at 7:54:43
In reply to Those gorgous blue eyes looking into mine....., posted by happyflower on March 14, 2006, at 16:32:43
> ....that seems like forever and it ends with a mutual smile that lights up each others face.
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> But yet it hurts, T's can't have outside relationships with their clients. Yet when we see each other outside of the office it is like a big secret that we share on how we know each other. I can look, but I can't talk to or touch.
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> We don't have an elephant but a huge dinosaur in the room. I wish for a cinderella story but yet that can't happen, because he is my T. I know the feelings are mutual, 100% sure, but yet it is left unsaid, because it can't be. I think I might have fallen in love for real, maybe the first time in my life. But yet it is all wrong, only because of the rules of ethics. Is it always wrong? Is it wrong to give up on love? Many questions as I quietly ponder Why ? He has touched me in a way no other has. It's bittersweet though.((((((((happyflower))))))))))))
It is so hard, the feelings i have for my T are so similar to yours except I never see him outside his office which must be torture.
I told him once that if my feeling were 'love' then I can't have ever loved before becuase I simply didn't recognise ever having felt that intensly before.
I am grateful for the love of a sweet hubby but that is it, I'm grateful because I never felt worthy of anyones love and I don't think I ever expected to feel love especially after the rape I thought everyone could see what 'damaged goods' i was even though I never breathed a word to anyone still only this board & my T know.
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