Posted by special_k on April 13, 2006, at 22:30:40
In reply to Re: littleone, posted by littleone on April 11, 2006, at 21:51:49
hey. yeah... reminds me of hamlet (i think) were everything feels 'dull, flat, and unprofitable'. i know the feeling of just getting from one day to the next without much reason... it's not so nice... but it is nicer than feeling bad i guess.
> I'm the one sitting in the bushes watching everyone else have a nice time. I've got my kitty with me and there's some flowers around us.
ah. well i'll come and sit with you then. i'm like that... i'm the person that goes and sits with someone who is sitting there by themself. i get a bit anxious round crowds and noisey people so i'll just come and have a chat to you. we can make daisychains if you like.
yeah... i'm not sure about my parts either. sometimes i can almost believe that i imagined the whole thing... othertimes they seem very real to me. it is hard :-( i feel a lot silly about them sometimes too. i don't know...
> And I've also had a lot of mum stuff hanging over my head. I always thought mum was the good parent. She certainly didn't rage like my dad did. But now I see some things that kind of indicate she has been a lot more harmful to me than dad. So now she's flipped from good to bad in my head which has been very hard to deal with. I'm still not able to see her as an in between.yeah. my dad was a little like that for me. i thought he was okay. just kind of absent. but now i see that he is actively unhelpful in a way i never really recognised before. it is a hard one. i guess integrating the new knowledge is goign to take some time...
> So yes, things have been hard for me and I'm probably not doing real well at the moment.hug for you if you would like...
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