Posted by happyflower on April 20, 2006, at 7:36:13
In reply to do you ever wish...?, posted by sunnydays on April 19, 2006, at 18:02:49
Hi Sunnydays (love your name!)
I grew up going through a lot of trama almost everyday and I think what kept my spirt going and living was denial of what was really going on. It helped me succeed in school and do a lot of things. I kept up this pretending for a long time until therapy where I couldn't pretend anymore. The effects of the early trama came back into my life and was hurting me emotionally and physically. Through EMDR, the mask I wore of a perfect childhood was ripped off. I couldn't pretend any longer and I had to face what happened to me, accept it, and move forward. It was for me a huge step in therapy to finally admit to myself that yes I was abused.
I think we pretend to keep ourselves safe in the world. I think maybe when you are ready, and feeling safe with your T , safe in your life, feeling strong, you might be ready to accept your past. Until then, keep wishing until you are ready. I think your feelings are sooo normal. (((((sunnydays))))
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