Posted by DisposableDoll on April 28, 2006, at 20:25:10
So, we're going on vacation. I should be happy right? Should consider myself blessed to be able to travel somewhere on vacation with some of my family? And it's all being paid for, too. And if I whine about it I really will sound like a brat, right? Well, I'm not happy. I'm not excited. I'm apprehensive and almost depressed about it. I don't want to go. I feel like I have things that need taken care of HERE. Furthermore, we're taking a plane to get to our destination, which makes me nervous. When we get there I know that my sister, her husband, and 2 of their 3 kids will insist on spending most of the time at the amusement parks, which means we all have to go. I, however, get nervous on a lot of the rides and motion sickness on some, so I don't ride very many of them. I would rather be swimming in the ocean, parasailing, or something of that nature. However, I'll end up having to trail them along to amusement parks, walking for hours in the heat through the parks and sitting and staring at the pavement with a highly expensive cool beverage in my hand as I wait for them to finish their ride and move on to yet another where I shall resume the pavement watching. I love my family and want to spend time with them, but it seems the kids are always crying or fighting with each other, or the parents are fighting with the kids, and with each other. All of that screaming and crying makes me nervous and gloomy. Not to mention that I don't want to spend my vacation nervous, depressed, and being bored out of my skull in a place where I know no one else, while the people I am supposed to be having bonding time with are off riding rides without me because many of them upset me, and I am just baking by myself with nothing to do in the hot sun. So, honestly, I'd rather stay home. I WANT to stay home, but I CAN'T. I can't stay because if I stay my mother will freak out because it apparently means I don't love them or want to spend time with them. No, I have to go. I don't want to. I am depressed and stressed out about it. I honestly am. I don't want to go. And I like to take a friend along with me, but I haven't had a friend join me in these family trips of ours in years, though I did get to join one on her vacation not long ago. *Sighs* Anyways, I don't want to go, but I feel forced to. If I don't go there WILL be repercussions, so I'm going.
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