Posted by muffled on September 10, 2006, at 14:05:18
In reply to Re: Arrrgggghhh***trigger negative rant*** » muffled, posted by 10derHeart on September 10, 2006, at 13:34:16
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> NOT TRUE!!
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> Remember, well, at least if you're anything like me and I'm sure many here, the worst, most 'black and white' negative stuff we THINK and FEEL inside (like the world's biggest effing moron) has ZERO relationship to reality.***I will try and beleive.....
It's just thoughts and feelings, and distorted ones, at that. It isn't really the actual 'you.' I know - it sure does seem like it, but it's you-know-who messing with you.
***but it feels so bad, it feels so strong...makes me tired
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> God doesn't see that about you - I know you believe that, and the less-than-desireable stuff He does see in ALL of us, well, he loves you right through it - loves you even more. And so do we here.***Oh thank you. I need to hear that. Sometimes He seems so far away.
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> And as for actually doing 'stupid things' sometimes, I say - SO WHAT? Good, even. Do we want to be around perfect people (robots?) who never make mistakes? Nope. I want to be around you MORE if you mess up in speaking or whatever, 'cause then I know you're a regular human like me, and I like that - a lot!***Yeah, I say that too.
Its just such a deep self-loathing that takes over sometimes. Just sucks the life out of me.
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> Sorry you're sounding so frustrated and angry, muffly. I know it hurts to get that way. It'll pass - ya' know? It always does.***Yes. Yes-yes-yes. It WILL pass, just hurts is all. Hurts real bad. I just wanto crawl in a hole and die.
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> You said no hugs, so I won't this time, BUT NOT for the reason you said. I'm not afraid of you or anything from you getting on me. You are NOT contaminated.***thats huge to me. I have a thing bout people being afraid of me. I used to ask my T that often, 'are you afraid of me?'. She'd say, 'should I be?', all the time she's just sitting there calm as ever, not looking at all afraid....
Yeah, I am NOT a leper....
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> You hang in there. Post some more. Tell us if something happened if you feel up to it.***I'm not sure WHAT is going on?
Got alot on my plate, not enough time to think.
Confused and dismayed bout attachment.
Got probs. in my home church.
Tired, tired, tired.
Just too much STUFF.
Yeah, and I posted some stuff here bout me thats bad, so I guess I afraid everybody gonna look at me like I bad or something :-(
Thanks 10der, for some important reminders.
Muffled
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