Posted by wishingstar on September 16, 2006, at 20:00:00
In reply to Re: and now I have no T » wishingstar, posted by Poet on September 15, 2006, at 13:42:41
I completely agree with what you said.. one large, intense hurt is much better for me that several small ones, over and over. I dont know for sure that she was setting me up to have randy do the hard work for her yet, but I just really have that feeling. All signs point to it. We talked about scheduling next week, and when I told her when I was available, she just kept saying hmm.. well lets just wait.. you can call me next week.. talk to randy first... yeah. Sounds suspicious to me. That isnt the only reason I think that though. Is she really that either insensitive or out of touch with my feelings that she thinks that'd be best? Or does she just not care and this is more comfortable for her? Why would she do this to me? Of course I dont think she cares. Of course.
I am comfortable talking to Laurie about this. In fact, her and I talked a lot over the summer about some of the things that had happened in the spring with Anne, so Laurie wouldnt be too shocked I dont think. I actually left a message for Laurie on Friday telling her I'd quit with Anne and I'd call her next week about maybe driving up to see her. It's just hard to commit to a 4 hour drive (2hrs each way) once a week.. but also hard to give Laurie up, since I trust her so much, she knows me so well.. it wouldnt be like starting over. But aside from her, yes there are Ts that she program could recommend to me.. several who are affiliated with the program and some who arent. Randy could choose a good one I'm sure, but I dont know. I hate the thought of starting over. I've done it so, so many times. I'm planning to talk to Randy about this on Monday. A big part of me just wants to say forget it and quit therapy, but being in partial right now, I dont think theyll let me go without a follow-up person.
Sorry for not remembering who it was who had Dr Clueless. I know I'd read it many times, but I just couldnt remember. Nothing personal. :)
Thanks for your thoughts. Obviously I do have a lot of questions.. hah. This just hurts. I mean, what's wrong with ME that this keeps happening? Nothing, I know.. but it sure feels like it.
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