Posted by ClearSkies on November 11, 2006, at 23:28:56
In reply to Re: Well, I'm not rejecting you Kerria, » Lindenblüte, posted by kerria on November 11, 2006, at 17:47:28
Me neither Kerria. No judgement.
No real understanding either of your parts and how they go in different directions leaving you to deal with all the feelings and the aftereffects of those feelings.I had trouble at another forum where I was uncomfortable to begin with, and then I made a comment on a subject that was apparently not politically correct, and my entire thread went POOF! This single act without any benefit for me to defend myself, just shattered me.
I had been posting there long enough except to meet a few regular contributors, but no one with whom I stay in contact off the boards.
I was puzzled and confused by the quick and undoable act that (to me) invalidated everything I had expressed. I left quite bitter and didn't even try to take a second look to see what it was about theforum that upset me so. Funny things trigger me badly: emoticons (except those made by punctuation; avatars annoy me to no end. And any animation means I probably won't read any of the poster's contributions.
So I'm back where I fee safe. Civility are broad in nature because of the number of boards it has to emcompass.
I'm sorry you feel so badly and have tears. I have been down that road, Kerria, to have felt a sudden change of heart to one that it intolerable.
It's best to move on, T-wise, or at least explore some of your other possibilities for treatment.
At the very least, keep a daily journal chronically your mood states during the course of day. Try to make it a daily habit for six weeks, and it doesn't matter what you write or for how long the journal entry is. I call it my worry borad, my to do list, my accomplishments, the whole bag good and not so good.
SD I read your thread with comcern and care about you. Although I have not been in a similar situation with a health care giver, it is hard for me to imgaine except in many "what if?" scenarios.
Let it go, Let if go, if you cna. Designate a space for journal entry, a quiet place of solitude and uninterrupted time. That wll lesson your anxiety in making the writing at all.
ClearSkies
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