Posted by happykat on November 24, 2006, at 11:24:13
In reply to Re: Has T ever audiotaped sessions?, posted by vwoolf on November 23, 2006, at 14:38:50
> I would hate to be considered a case. I once took part in group therapy, and the leader thanked me at the end for bringing such interesting case material. I felt it diminished me as a person - I felt as if I was interesting only for my pathological side, which is not the whole of me.
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> At the same time, I know, it felt as if I was special. It felt as if he saw me as different to the other clients. And I loved feeling special.
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> I think you should tell her exctly what you feel. And work from there. If HER need to use your experiences is going to take over YOUR therapy, she needs to back off. Therapy is about you, and her needs should be put on hold. Period. Otherwise it is not therapy.It didn't make me feel special in a good way. It made me feel like a flippin freak. I think the timing is what upsets me the most along with the fact that I made it painfully clear that the reason I've never dealt with it and gotten help is my fear of being stigmatized over it. So it felt a little like a slap in the face after I spilled my guts waiting to hear, 'hey lots of people go through that, its ok.' only to hear, 'hey, you are messed up, lets make you a case study.' Not literally, but you get my drift.
If she had waited another six months or year I probably would feel alot different. But hearing that when I feel like I'm on the verge of a breakdown didn't play well with me.
The conference you went to sounds interesting. If she wrote a book it would be geared towards healthcare workers and would be case studies of her clients. The other thing is that after doing research I don't think my experiences are tremendously compelling anyway. I'm beginning to think her clinical experience is limited. I just don't understand why she had to go and bring it up when she did. It diminished my trust in her and I've subsequently backed away from dealing with the issue.
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