Posted by Lindenblüte on December 1, 2006, at 11:12:52
In reply to Re: is this depression? » Lindenblüte, posted by wishingstar on December 1, 2006, at 9:48:28
Wishing*,
you're going to get out of it. Part of the fear is the unreasonable voice of the Big-D (that's my nickname for depression) trying to do all it can to lure you back into darkness.
You're still having disordered thinking, which is very natural at the stage where you are. One of those disordered thoughts is that you will have nothing left after you emerge from depression.
I am still consistently amazed when I go back and look at the work that I managed to do when I was depressed. At the time, I thought it was complete garbage. Going back to it, it's just fine. I can hardly tell that I was sick, except that my handwriting is smaller and cramped, and that the dates in my lab notebook are awfully far apart.
You may also be surprised when you go back to "pick up the pieces of your life" that actually-- there's a lot of good stuff there.
Furthermore, you can give yourself a much-deserved fresh start. If part of your life is a total mess (like your finances) you can devote your new energy to consolidating your debts and making contact with your creditors about outstanding bills.
Think of it as an opportunity. My T told me that crisis is an opportunity for change and growth.
Best wishes for your continuing healing. It took a while to get into deep depression, and it may take a while to have it completely behind you.
-Li
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