Posted by vwoolf on December 5, 2006, at 13:53:57
Has your t ever done anything completely out of role?
I know I am a difficult client. I am often angry during sessions and accuse my t of all sorts of things. I understand that it is related to the way I feel and felt about my mother, i.e. tranference. And I have been going through a really angry, accusatory time recently.
A few weeks ago I got really stuck in during one session, and accused her (not for the first time) of just being there for the money. She glared at me, and then jumped up and said she'd had enough, that if I could storm out of the room so could she, and she marched out and slammed the door. She came back a few minutes later. We were quite sweet and careful with each other for the rest of the session, and she sunsequently apologised and took ownership of what had happened.
But I am still wondering about it. I feel a bit bemused. On one hand I feel closer to her because she reacted personally, not in a professional capacity, towards me. It makes me feel as if I mean something real to her.
On the other hand it frightens me a little. But I don't know why. I have tried to talk about it in session, but I am not even sure what I am trying to understand, so it keeps evading me. I suspect she is trying to minimise it, but it feels quite important for me not to let it go.
Has this happened to anyone else. Can you help me in any way?
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