Posted by Tamar on December 26, 2006, at 18:48:51
In reply to Re: why can't I leave therapy? » Tamar, posted by Daisym on December 26, 2006, at 0:57:01
> (((Tamar)))
>
> I'm sorry you are having such a tough time. Leaving anyone you love is very hard and leaving someone you need is even harder. I think you've received some wise advice, and though it might be painful, it does sound like a direct conversation is needed. Asking him how he thinks things are going might be a good place to start.Yes, I’m sure that’s right. I think he’d probably welcome a conversation about how things are going. I expect he’s nearly as frustrated as I am.
> Are you seeing someone else for medications? Perhaps you can get a consult from the pdoc, if possible. But suffering like this, for this long, just isn't fair nor healthy. Gather your courage, maybe ask for a double session and sit down and try to make a plan for the future. Your future.
Happily for me, my GP prescribes my meds. I tried to cut down a month ago but with out success so I’m back up to 40mg of Prozac. I wish I could double it… I kind of feel the need for lots and lots.
I’m sure that part of the difficulty is my own wish to avoid the subject. I’d love to blame Bert entirely but somehow that doesn’t seem fair.
I’ve tried so many different ways to talk to him about it. And I’ve tried writing things down, but I never seem to be able to articulate things properly. Last session I wrote stuff down and then forgot to take it… unconsciously avoiding it, I suppose. Maybe I should write him a letter; then I won’t be able to run away from it! My main worry about that is that he might keep it in my file. I don’t want anything like that to be in writing in my file. I’d rather ask him to give it back to me. I wonder if he’d agree to that…
> Take care of yourself.
You too.
Love,
Tamar
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