Posted by JeffSmith on December 29, 2006, at 19:42:24
In reply to Re: PLEASE Read This And Help Me... Please., posted by inimitable on December 29, 2006, at 14:45:21
I really appreciate that you all took the time to read my saga and then reply w/ suggestions. Its definitely humiliating to reveal all of that about myself and I feared (and honestly still fear) that some of you may harshly judge me for whatever reason... but Im very much comforted by the fact that all you guys have your own issues (like who doesnt?). Ive been reading some of the posts here and its just nice to know that you can understand and perhaps relate to me and I to you.
And just so you know: I have a real "people pleasing" problem which I despise. Im always horrified of the thought that someone will get pissed off at me, dislike me or be unnecessarily offended if I said exactly how I feel- so Ive always found myself holding back a lot of my true feelings. As I said, I despise doing this and Id love to just be my blunt, honest, angry, depressed self here if I could without fear of being hated. So Ill attempt to do so and just hope for the best.
So right now the truth is that Im overwhelmed by the thought of responding individually to each point each person wrote to me in reply to my message. To do so would require so much more thinking and then writing which takes me a ridiculous amount of time/mental energy and (of course) fills me w/ anxiety. Id rather not deal with all that anxiety right now so I will put off responding to individuals until later.
Please do not be offended if I dont write a huge reply to everyone... and dont be offended if I dont reply to everything you said- or even if I dont reply to anything at all.
Thanks for hopefully understanding this, and thanks again especially for all the replys.
Jeff
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URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/psycho/20061210/msgs/717408.html